Me. Sky the other day because wow. Food today. Not pictured: banana, satsuma, apple, yogurt, cucumbers, tomatoes, ton of coffee and water and gum. Dang, I eat a lot.
That’s a half smile at best. Today has not been so awesome. Work has been go go go nonstop for two weeks and sometimes I feel like all the effort I am putting in gets noticed and other days like today, not so much. It’s like it’s never enough. I don’t need a pat on the back every day, but for crying out loud. My boss needs to work on his bossing skills. He is a highly intelligent person. He is also kind and I know he means well. But this is his first supervisory position in his whole life and, um, sometimes it shows.
There’s other stuff. A grieving friend who I wish I lived closer to right now. Bad dreams last night. Being tired. Being crazy hungry to the point of distraction every hour. Just mentally a bit out of whack today.
One bright spot. Not going to go into too much detail but… it seems like every time I start to think maybe I talk too much about my sobriety I get a message from someone as a sign that my continued candidness is a positive thing. It has happened with surprising frequency. Today it was from a woman I had not directly spoken to in a couple, few years, telling me she was 30 days sober, and thanking me for being an inspiration and trying to help her, even when she wasn’t ready to hear it. I was floored and deeply moved, to say the least. So. I will continue to talk about or make reference to my sobriety as it feels right, online and off. I never know who I am affecting and I would rather overemphasize the point than keep my experience and hope to myself when others may need it. Yeah.