Crazy morning sky, my favorite breakfast, and me hanging onto my coffee mug like it has healing powers.
I finally feel like myself today. I thought I knew how thoroughly run down and exhausted I was, mind and body, but I don’t think I really realized it until this morning, when feeling NORMAL seemed AMAZING when it should have just felt normal. I have energy, I feel (nearly) anxiety-free, and all is well.
I haven’t run since Friday and I am surprisingly okay with that. Like, I can’t even believe how okay I am with that. It helps that I hiked all day Saturday and walked for four hours Sunday, so in my obsessive mind, it’s only been a few rest days, ones I know were needed. I almost felt ready to go back out today, but tomorrow will do fine. Being okay with all that, and with doing what I feel works for me day-to-day, makes me marvel that I was a streak runner for so long.
On that note, I finally emailed the USRSA guys and resigned my Assistant Webmaster position. I enjoyed being of service, but I felt insincere in continuing when I know that I will never be a streak runner again. I can see maybe going through phases/short streaks - a couple of weeks at a time, here and there - but since stopping my streak, my life feels so much more enriched by the variety in it: hiking, archery, hunting (soon!), walking, REST DAYS, and almost all of it spent with Steve. I cannot see returning to the obligation of fitting in a mile every day, around hikes and hunting trips especially, just to fit it in.
Have I possibly maybe found balance in one area of my life? *Gasp*
That’s all I got, tumblr-ites. I keep wanting to discuss my current long streak of no junk bingeing, but I also think I’d like to see it go for more than 90 days first. You guys will be the first to know when that happens, no doubt.
Over and out!