1. 11:19 20th Aug 2014

    Notes: 54

    Tags: meskymy food

    Crazy morning sky, my favorite breakfast, and me hanging onto my coffee mug like it has healing powers.

    I finally feel like myself today. I thought I knew how thoroughly run down and exhausted I was, mind and body, but I don’t think I really realized it until this morning, when feeling NORMAL seemed AMAZING when it should have just felt normal. I have energy, I feel (nearly) anxiety-free, and all is well.

    I haven’t run since Friday and I am surprisingly okay with that. Like, I can’t even believe how okay I am with that. It helps that I hiked all day Saturday and walked for four hours Sunday, so in my obsessive mind, it’s only been a few rest days, ones I know were needed. I almost felt ready to go back out today, but tomorrow will do fine. Being okay with all that, and with doing what I feel works for me day-to-day, makes me marvel that I was a streak runner for so long.

    On that note, I finally emailed the USRSA guys and resigned my Assistant Webmaster position. I enjoyed being of service, but I felt insincere in continuing when I know that I will never be a streak runner again. I can see maybe going through phases/short streaks - a couple of weeks at a time, here and there - but since stopping my streak, my life feels so much more enriched by the variety in it: hiking, archery, hunting (soon!), walking, REST DAYS, and almost all of it spent with Steve. I cannot see returning to the obligation of fitting in a mile every day, around hikes and hunting trips especially, just to fit it in.

    Have I possibly maybe found balance in one area of my life? *Gasp*

    That’s all I got, tumblr-ites. I keep wanting to discuss my current long streak of no junk bingeing, but I also think I’d like to see it go for more than 90 days first. You guys will be the first to know when that happens, no doubt.

    Over and out!

    (Source: happyhealthycook)

     
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    Gorgeous clouds, gorgeous dinner, gorgeous cat draped across my leg. This is the way to leave long days at work behind.

    Gorgeous clouds, gorgeous dinner, gorgeous cat draped across my leg. This is the way to leave long days at work behind.

     
  3. 18:19 18th Aug 2014

    Notes: 27

    Tags: my food

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    Homemade cashew chicken > takeout cashew chicken. Every time. My recipe here.

    Homemade cashew chicken > takeout cashew chicken. Every time. My recipe here.

     
  4. 13:53

    Notes: 22

    Tags: running

    Stop overthinking, stop beating yourself up and STOP making excuses. Just shut up and run. I love her!

     
  5. Steve’s birthday stuff:

    • Another hike in East Texas + pulling camera cards + putting spike strips on one of the feeders to ward off racoons. We were going to shoot our bows but it was so hot on Saturday and we’ve been so tired from all the mileage we put in last week, we both trashed that idea pretty quickly. Still one of the best times we’ve ever had out there because…
    • THIS DOE, YOU GUYS. This was such a crazy encounter. First time we saw her, she was 100 yards away but instead of running away, she stared at us for a few minutes. Odd. Second time we saw her in the same corridor, she was 50 yards away - and kept walking toward us! VERY ODD. We left again and came back to the area later… she was gone, but on Steve’s second round trip back from his trail camera up the hill, he scared off a tiny fawn hidden in the foliage and we suddenly realized the reason for the strange behavior of the doe. She must have been the momma and was defending her baby. Crazy! Those fawns sure can stay hidden well. We had no idea.
    • Hello, Mr. Turtle!
    • Hunters Extravaganza on Sunday. Birthday Highlight: meeting Dr. James Kroll (retired professor, #1 whitetail expert in the country, conservationist, hunting world celebrity) at the Hunters Extravaganza in Fort Worth. A chance acquaintance friendship I struck up with one of our outside contractors at work who happens to be friends with Dr. Kroll led to us having a private sit-down with him. It was the BEST. He is as passionate and kind and thoughtful as I hoped. He even invited us out to his annual field day at his place in east Texas in March. So great.
    • Me trying on a Mathews hat that didn’t fit nearly as well as The Crush hat from Cabela’s I’ve been putting off buying because I thought I’d find something better at this exhibit. Dang it. Next time I go to Cabela’s I am finally swooping that up.
     
  6. 12:11

    Notes: 34

    Tags: husbandmy foodhunting

    Steve’s Birthday weekend in food and gifts. All the dessert stuff was for him alone. Those bacon-wrapped links are Hatch chile sausages and I served them with chopped Hatch chiles on the side. Ridiculous. Ribs with my dry rub and homemade sauce I’ve been making for years somehow turned out the best they ever have. And he is so in love with the HSS harness/vest I got him. It’s the best on the market and comes with built in bino straps, magnetic pockets and ventilation in the back. I swear he damn near wore it to bed last night.

    Not pictured: the three pairs of UA underwear in that first gift wrap (ha!), killer sandwiches post-hike on Saturday, and dessert #1 from Friday, a massive slice of pineapple upside down cake with diced fresh pineapple on the side. 

    (Source: happyhealthycook)

     
  7. 11:02

    Notes: 45

    Tags: mepersonalmeditation

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    Atypical selfie: upstairs den - and with glasses! I’m home today. Not only could I not bring myself to get up and run this morning, I couldn’t bring myself to go to work either.
I am utterly exhausted. I’ve been running and doing for weeks on end now and ever since our friends left last Sunday, I have pretty much felt like I am drowning and in desperate need of sleep, sleep and more sleep. I’ve been worried about how the visit went. I’ve been worried about everything I need to do every day - running, cooking, working, home life. I’ve been worried about making Steve’s birthday weekend special. I’ve been worried about my job - and keeping my job - because everything there felt nothing short of shit-tastic last week.
And I am terrible about recognizing that these mental states lead to even further exhaustion and sickness.  I have even felt nauseous on and off at some point nearly every day for the last week, but it wasn’t until juggernaute​ posted this morning about her anxiety and such that it occurred to me that my anxiety and worry might be causing that.
*Deep breath*
So I took her advice and downloaded the Headspace app she’s been recommending these days. And hoo boy people. It’s stunning how much good 10 minutes of quiet, calm, eyes closed, focusing on the breath can benefit the mind and body. I felt rejuvenated, calm, happy.
Another huge benefit: when I was following the instructions to focus on how different parts of my body felt, I became acutely aware of which parts of me were most pained, tight, or tired. Learning to pay attention to those things can only benefit me in the long-term. It’s almost bizarre how easy it is for me to become oblivious to these physical cues and it puts me in danger of injuring myself again. Obviously, I don’t want that.
Anyway, I’ve been meaning to (pffft… meaning to doesn’t mean anything) start a meditation habit, however small, since reading and re-reading Running with the Mind of Meditation. This first activity on Headspace today was a good start.

    Atypical selfie: upstairs den - and with glasses! I’m home today. Not only could I not bring myself to get up and run this morning, I couldn’t bring myself to go to work either.

    I am utterly exhausted. I’ve been running and doing for weeks on end now and ever since our friends left last Sunday, I have pretty much felt like I am drowning and in desperate need of sleep, sleep and more sleep. I’ve been worried about how the visit went. I’ve been worried about everything I need to do every day - running, cooking, working, home life. I’ve been worried about making Steve’s birthday weekend special. I’ve been worried about my job - and keeping my job - because everything there felt nothing short of shit-tastic last week.

    And I am terrible about recognizing that these mental states lead to even further exhaustion and sickness.  I have even felt nauseous on and off at some point nearly every day for the last week, but it wasn’t until juggernaute​ posted this morning about her anxiety and such that it occurred to me that my anxiety and worry might be causing that.

    *Deep breath*

    So I took her advice and downloaded the Headspace app she’s been recommending these days. And hoo boy people. It’s stunning how much good 10 minutes of quiet, calm, eyes closed, focusing on the breath can benefit the mind and body. I felt rejuvenated, calm, happy.

    Another huge benefit: when I was following the instructions to focus on how different parts of my body felt, I became acutely aware of which parts of me were most pained, tight, or tired. Learning to pay attention to those things can only benefit me in the long-term. It’s almost bizarre how easy it is for me to become oblivious to these physical cues and it puts me in danger of injuring myself again. Obviously, I don’t want that.

    Anyway, I’ve been meaning to (pffft… meaning to doesn’t mean anything) start a meditation habit, however small, since reading and re-reading Running with the Mind of Meditation. This first activity on Headspace today was a good start.

    (Source: happyhealthycook)

     
  8. 18:20 16th Aug 2014

    Notes: 28

    Tags: my food

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    Processing Hatch chiles (cut heads off, devein, seed, rub off some of the char, store in half-pound portions) by the 25-pound box this year has truly been a labor of love. It will all be worth it those nights in late fall and winter when we are eating venison and Hatch chile enchiladas and pork and green chile stew and Hatch chile chicken salad and…

    Processing Hatch chiles (cut heads off, devein, seed, rub off some of the char, store in half-pound portions) by the 25-pound box this year has truly been a labor of love. It will all be worth it those nights in late fall and winter when we are eating venison and Hatch chile enchiladas and pork and green chile stew and Hatch chile chicken salad and…

     
  9. 12:13 15th Aug 2014

    Notes: 52

    Tags: merunning

    My selfie game wasn’t very strong today (you know what I mean - you take 50 and don’t like a single one completely), but I couldn’t resist posting a picture of me in this shirt. I love this shirt. I don’t wear it enough. 

    And look at that run! Another 6-miler, this time less of a struggle and with more aggressive early paces. Love it. Also, this makes a total of 20 miles the last four days. We are feeling strong, no doubt.

    Off for the weekend. Picking up a surprise gift for Steve’s birthday and then it’s woods and hiking tomorrow and the annual hunting show downtown.on Sunday. All good stuff. Have a great one, everybody!

    (Source: happyhealthycook)

     
  10. 08:13

    Notes: 6

    Tags: thehomecookrunner

    thehomecookrunner replied to your post: No food, no face, only my run today. I…

    Way to go on those hills! And I know what you mean - I’ve been purposely going up a big hill since I’ve been running again and I hate it every time. But I just clear my head and keep putting one foot in front of the other and suddenly I’m at the top.

    I love this. That is identical to how yesterday was for me, especially on hill #1. Mentally calm, step by step, I will make it without faltering, and I did. :)